Up & Downs...

Life moves on every single second. Even when I'm typing this out now... I sometimes ask myself. To worry about the mistakes done and get stressed up emotionally and confine yourself away from the world? Or let go, change, forget and move on? I often am confused! Haih!

Mistakes can be corrected. I made a few big mistakes in my life. Some, I still can't forgive myself fully. Some, full of regret. Some, full of sorrow... Even if I could forgive myself and change, there are still many circumstances. One is whether the people you offended will forgive you. And most of the time, they don't if you made too many mistakes, or a BIG mistake. Haih! Life is full of up and downs!

Another way, is worry about the mistakes done, get stressed up emotionally, confine yourself away from the world, and be alone. But who wants to be lonely? Haih... I wish someone could lend an ear and give me some good advise. I'm scared of making a wrong move.
And the worse thing is I feel I'm being back-stabbed by my fellow school and classmates. Humph! If you tak puas something, come find me and talk and discuss straight larh! Eye to eye. Why need to back-stab? Hah? MANGKUK!

Recently, I had a disagreement with my parents too, about the usage of wifi. Why do my parents need to control some things till so strict? Haih.

Why make things so difficult? Let it be free larh! If not why have wifi for? So that people can use. Now they program it, so that I cannot use after 11 p.m. Haih. Sometimes need to check something online, just on my pda and online check. Now leh? Need ask parents to on computer. So ma fan! Fed UP!!!

Sometimes, I feel so happy, like I'm in seventh heaven. But sometimes I feel so down, like I'm in hell. Haih!