Thursday, October 31, 2013

Most of Us are Deluded... At Least I Am.

Self-delusion is a flaw. Yet even I who have tried to prevent myself to being self-deluded have fallen into the trap of being so. I often ask myself when i'm doing my work: Will what I do be ever good enough? What is all these that I am doing leading to? Are my efforts always futile? In the end, I would feel that what I have done are in vain, I should stop wasting time on this and devote myself to some sort of entertainment.

In other words , a distraction. A distraction to distract myself from the fact that i'm feeling unworthy and empty. However, these distractions, are temporary never permanent, and truth is eternal. Social entertainment, computer games, random channels on TV are often my distractions that I fall prey into. 

Exams. Are. Right. Around. The. Corner.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Blowing the Happy Dust Mites Away...

I was wondering around the blogosphere today, and I remember that I too have a blog! OH, it has been a long time since I've blogged (look at my last post, it's dated August 24th, 2012!). I'm sure the dust mites (comment-spammers) have been feasting away happily filling my old blog posts with nothing but spam (I've removed them already), but it's high time I put an end to that. It's time to put back my blogging cap on and get my rusty writing skills to work!

Looking back on some of my old blog posts, I wonder why did I ever start this site in the first place. Why did I start blogging? I remember years ago when I started this thing (it has been 7 years, since 2007), all I blogged about was about me, ranting and raving how unfair life was, posting music lyrics, etc... typical teenage drama, though looking back it serves as a sort of a personal journal. After maturing up a little, blogging became a place for me to raise my opinions and thoughts to the public. I mean who doesn't want a chance to express their feelings to people? I think blogging was just the right technology that came along and gave people the chance to do just that. Of course, I was also caught up by the thought of generating income (via Adsense, and all the other advertising gadgets around my blog), though I gave it up a long time ago. It takes AGES to get enough to cash out your money from ads, unless of course, you're a celebrity blogger.

Ok, enough of me reminiscing of how-I-started-my-blog. So, what's my motivation to blog now?

2 words. Still searching.